I realized one thing, the most easiest way to make words flow out of your mind onto a piece of paper is to just write the truth without any filter, without any thought about tactic, procedure and all of the hi-fi stuff you learn while majoring in literature.
I usually write when I feel very deep emotions. Right now I'm feeling a mixture of anger and sadness all because of love and its deep. So to make this energy flow in a constructive way, hopefully....i decided to write about it.
Keeping this in mind (no filters) I'll start.
Well, i guess I just can't start. How could I possibly put this in words.These deep feelings feel like they are tearing me apart. But I'm told to trust that they are actually going to lead to something happy. "Pain is the only way" or so I'm told. Told by whom you ask? Well by experience.
Its so painful, I feel like crashing glasses. I've heard so many people get heart attacks and what not. Why is it that they are lucky? Look at me.......I wouldn't mind it. As it is I'm dying on the inside emotionally, mentally.. why not physically? Then at least people would know how painful it is.
Okay, don't get me wrong.....I'm not completely suicidal. I don't intend on dying and leaving this world permanently. No that clearly ain't my wish. I just want to know, if he would feel anything, something if he was told that I might no longer be there. Well I do have this strong faith that, he will feel it. He will know what I'm feeling, he will find it.
So I'm probably hoping that, he can save me only if he wants to. Without him, I don't have any reason to live. Call me stupid, I don't mind. After thinking in all logical ways, (and I'm a very logical person) I settled for this. So trust me when I tell you, this is how it is. He is the reason I live . I have no life without him.
I usually write when I feel very deep emotions. Right now I'm feeling a mixture of anger and sadness all because of love and its deep. So to make this energy flow in a constructive way, hopefully....i decided to write about it.
Keeping this in mind (no filters) I'll start.
Well, i guess I just can't start. How could I possibly put this in words.These deep feelings feel like they are tearing me apart. But I'm told to trust that they are actually going to lead to something happy. "Pain is the only way" or so I'm told. Told by whom you ask? Well by experience.
Its so painful, I feel like crashing glasses. I've heard so many people get heart attacks and what not. Why is it that they are lucky? Look at me.......I wouldn't mind it. As it is I'm dying on the inside emotionally, mentally.. why not physically? Then at least people would know how painful it is.
Okay, don't get me wrong.....I'm not completely suicidal. I don't intend on dying and leaving this world permanently. No that clearly ain't my wish. I just want to know, if he would feel anything, something if he was told that I might no longer be there. Well I do have this strong faith that, he will feel it. He will know what I'm feeling, he will find it.
So I'm probably hoping that, he can save me only if he wants to. Without him, I don't have any reason to live. Call me stupid, I don't mind. After thinking in all logical ways, (and I'm a very logical person) I settled for this. So trust me when I tell you, this is how it is. He is the reason I live . I have no life without him.
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